Wish [Poem]

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Dear friends, living, lost, and long dead

To days gone by and words needed, but not said

Could I find the time again if I were to try?

Or have all opportunities justly passed me by?

To grow up knowing one may be born to die?

Trapped in a cave with no way to thrive

As our hearts hold dear

To wishes and lives we dream

But here no rest only the fear to be

And yet we try and hope

An event we must coax

More elusive than the wind or a ghost

A shadow we must chance even during night

For hope is the drive, the promise, the flight

My love, if you could see me now

I’d trade my life for yours, but how?

Even on my lowest days the choice is mine

And if I see you again, I will help you thrive.

On 9/11 [Essay]

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I find 9/11 to be an uncomfortable thing for me to talk about. I was 13 when it happened. In the 7th grade, I think. I was at school and it was around 11:30am when all the T.Vs in the classrooms were turned on. The students and teachers pretended to work while the footage of the planes going into the Twin Towers played in the background. Nearly half of my classes were like this. We couldn’t keep our eyes off of it. I want to say we got let go early, because eventually it was the only thing people were focused on.
I ended up walking home and was surprised to find my family had made it to the house before I did. I was scared because my dad said that since it was terrorists the war might last a long time and I might end up getting drafted when I turned 18. Five years seemed like a long time for a war to last and it freaked me out. I remembered my grandfather talking about shortages for everything during WW2 and I assumed it’d be like that. It was a bit overblown now that I think about it, but my mind couldn’t help but go there.
Looking back, it’s almost insane how one day separated the America I came of age in and the America that came the day after. For me the optimism of the 90s still resonated into the new Millennium prior to 9/11. NSYNC’s music video “Pop” that came out a few months before the attacks kind of encapsulates that last bit of American optimism. I’m not sure we’re ever going to get that feeling back or even want it anymore.
It’s as if we’ve been struggling between trying to regain that bit of innocence back and courting our own self destruction ever since that day happened. A part of the country seems to be impatiently waiting for the apocalypse (and in that impatience trying to take matters into their own hands to make that happen) and the other just wants to make like the past 17 years never happened. Overall (despite current circumstances) we’ve matured as a country. We know what our problems are. Solving them is harder and something major will have to be sacrificed to make that happen. I just hope it makes things better for us. I just hope it makes us a better class of people. Unlike other countries in the past, we have the luxury of knowledge in history and technology to make this happen for us. If we don’t, then we’ll have screwed ourselves over more thoroughly than the Romans. Well…I guess that’s all I wanted to say.

An Immortal’s Tribute [Poem]

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A dream unto me,

of times and fables gone by,

why did I cry,

when I knew the line made not to cross

yet we crossed long ago and long before

lines on your face I did adore

and what was me?

Not much to say

Who would believe on my most honest day

one who saw life and world

from burn to birth

from grass to grit

from time to time

Too weary to see it once again pass me by

and you came like speck in the night

my universe to your star

burning brightly from afar

And I knew you would fade

but all the same I wanted to stay

and see you grow old bright star from afar

touch you and caress you kindly

love you blindly

even when you fade into that dark night

back into nothing after burning so bright

let it be known that you made my time fly ever lovingly by

and if revived to come out one day

please come by

please come and stay.